happie news friends!
ive been offered, and accepted, a job with the Department of Child Services! I will be working as a Family Case Manager. This pretty much means that when there is a case of child neglect or abuse, I will be on scene/behind the scenes working to make sure to put a stop to it. It will be hard and emotional, and I'm sure to be stressed, but I'm ready for the challenge and the change and all i need is support. I'm tired of people telling me how awful and sad and hard that it's going to be - I'm aware that it's no easy task, but it doesn't really help me to hear about all the downs. I'm excited to make a difference. Who knows if I'll like it or not? All i can do is give it a try and hope for the best.
I'm going to be moving to indianapolis for the job, and i'm so pumped to be trying something new in a new place with new people. ive been beyond antsy lately and i feel like this will be a great was to satisfy the urge to take off from valpo.
I've also signed up to take the GREs again. I plan on getting a better score than my first time around in the hopes that grad school is on the way in my future.
i've been eating much much better and exercising just about every day. I've been switching it up with routines, bike rides, taking the dog out for walks, and even did a zumba class yesterday (which i LOVED and highly suggest). i plan on keeping it up because it makes me feel great.
It's raining and i love it. im laying around in my pjs, watching lord of the rings, and im totally satisfied.
ps: first incredibly uneventful movie from my phone to youtube. mainly i was just playing with it to see how it worked....ENJOY!!! haha
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
again with forgetting i'm the "proud owner" of a blog! what the heck?!
officially done with school and more or less officially done with dekalb. i still have some things to move out of my old place, closure dinner to have with the roomie, and catching up drinking to do with my post bachs, then it will all be over. so strange to think that a year ago i was just deciding to go back to school, deciding to move in with my then-boyfriend, deciding to completely uproot myself for what i thought was going to be the best decisions of my life. i was so excited.
o how things change. positives and negatives. im very glad that i did go into my program because i got to meet wonderful people and begin working towards my goals. its strange to me how kevin and i ended up where we are now. we were best friends all throughout college, then at the end of college decided to become a couple, and lasted for years...not without issues though. a year ago i thought i had it all worked out. its not exactly sad as it is...interesting. everything works its way out and everything does happen for a reason. i'm not sure exactly what that reason is, but im sure i have time to find out.
im working my way back down to purdue. got my old job back preschool teaching and will very soon be looking for an apartment so i no longer have to crash on my friends couch. i cant wait to start working and making money. i cant afford my bills right now.
im tired and i have a decent amount of emotion on my mind so i apologize if this comes off as not exactly the happiest most exciting blog. im in a weird mood today because of a dream - does that ever happen to you? u have a weird or bad dream and it puts u in a funk all day, even though it wasn't real. yep, thats me.
well as usual ill finish this off with a little song that i cant stop listening to. this whole album is fantastic:
officially done with school and more or less officially done with dekalb. i still have some things to move out of my old place, closure dinner to have with the roomie, and catching up drinking to do with my post bachs, then it will all be over. so strange to think that a year ago i was just deciding to go back to school, deciding to move in with my then-boyfriend, deciding to completely uproot myself for what i thought was going to be the best decisions of my life. i was so excited.
o how things change. positives and negatives. im very glad that i did go into my program because i got to meet wonderful people and begin working towards my goals. its strange to me how kevin and i ended up where we are now. we were best friends all throughout college, then at the end of college decided to become a couple, and lasted for years...not without issues though. a year ago i thought i had it all worked out. its not exactly sad as it is...interesting. everything works its way out and everything does happen for a reason. i'm not sure exactly what that reason is, but im sure i have time to find out.
im working my way back down to purdue. got my old job back preschool teaching and will very soon be looking for an apartment so i no longer have to crash on my friends couch. i cant wait to start working and making money. i cant afford my bills right now.
im tired and i have a decent amount of emotion on my mind so i apologize if this comes off as not exactly the happiest most exciting blog. im in a weird mood today because of a dream - does that ever happen to you? u have a weird or bad dream and it puts u in a funk all day, even though it wasn't real. yep, thats me.
well as usual ill finish this off with a little song that i cant stop listening to. this whole album is fantastic:
Monday, April 5, 2010
what the eff is wrong with me?
it's official. sunday marked the 7 week mark of my illness. i woke up this morning with pink eye again, headed over to the clinic to get chest xrays and have my blood tested. as some of you know, i have intense hemophobia and it was so difficult for me to get the bloodwork done. its making me feel awkward just writing about it. i cried my eyes out and shook like crazie, i apologized and felt like a total idiot, but luckily the girl doing the test informed me that she has a weird fear of dogs and cats, so she wont be the one to make fun of me for this. i appreciated that.
so now im on new meds - eyedrops, inhaler, zpack, codine....wonderful. i had to call off work again today and not go to class.
god i hate dekalb. i cant wait to get out of here.
on a good note, im pumped for the weekend because i have a chitown date HEYYYOOOO
and now im off to study for my exam tomorrow. just felt like a little bitching was in order.
so now im on new meds - eyedrops, inhaler, zpack, codine....wonderful. i had to call off work again today and not go to class.
god i hate dekalb. i cant wait to get out of here.
on a good note, im pumped for the weekend because i have a chitown date HEYYYOOOO
and now im off to study for my exam tomorrow. just felt like a little bitching was in order.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
o that's right....i have a blog
mina, i have let you down. i said that i would jump on the blog bandwagon again and i completely lied. it didn't take me long to completely forget that i said, sure mina! i'll blog along!
so lets call this round 2.
the past month has been illness month. what is my deal? as soon as i get over a small cold i get punched in the face with this weird flu/cold business that the Dr can't quite give me a straight answer about. finally, after close to a week of deathbed, i forced myself back into the clinic where they realized that antibiotics were necessary. ya think? i don't need to be an MD to tell you that something was seriously wrong with me. and whadayaknow, its been 2 days on meds and ive improved almost completely. now to get rid of this damn cough, and i'll be so smiley.
grad schools are rejecting me left and right. its depressing but i'm trying to stay as positive as possible. i realize that i'm in a weird position where my bachelors is not in SLP so i've come to accept that if need be, i'm reapplying at purdue for more post bach work. but we shall cross that bridge when we get there...
im mending my heart and moving on to a new boy. new boy? its strange to call him a new boy when he's really been there the whole time. ive known him since kindergarten and we graduated high school together. we reconnected...or i guess..connected?...at the beginning of undergrad but nothing really panned out. now we are both in a the single position and thoroughly enjoying each other's company. he makes me feel so good about myself, so comfortable. its amazing. downer = he lives in indianapolis. [sigh] the queen of long distance relationships strikes again. good thing i enjoy road trips.
SPR had a baby. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG she had a BABY! i can hardly believe it and i held her in my arms. her name is isabella valencia redmond and she is perfection incarnate. SPR is the first of my close long-time gfs to get married and to have babies so this is beyond insanity for me. SPR was my 4th grade pen pal! i can't wait until bella actually takes shape and stops looking like every other newborn and starts looking like her parents. she is going to be one beautiful little girl.
starting monday i will be spending the week in indi! HEYYOOO! thanks in advance to rumdizzy who will be providing me with a place to sleep on monday! im also really looking forward to see my cousin, a few of my long lost gfs, and of course my booboo. SPRING BREAK HOLLLEERRR. some people go to cancun, some go to florida, i'm not leaving INDIANA YALL.
song of the day: tigerlily / la roux
so lets call this round 2.
the past month has been illness month. what is my deal? as soon as i get over a small cold i get punched in the face with this weird flu/cold business that the Dr can't quite give me a straight answer about. finally, after close to a week of deathbed, i forced myself back into the clinic where they realized that antibiotics were necessary. ya think? i don't need to be an MD to tell you that something was seriously wrong with me. and whadayaknow, its been 2 days on meds and ive improved almost completely. now to get rid of this damn cough, and i'll be so smiley.
grad schools are rejecting me left and right. its depressing but i'm trying to stay as positive as possible. i realize that i'm in a weird position where my bachelors is not in SLP so i've come to accept that if need be, i'm reapplying at purdue for more post bach work. but we shall cross that bridge when we get there...
im mending my heart and moving on to a new boy. new boy? its strange to call him a new boy when he's really been there the whole time. ive known him since kindergarten and we graduated high school together. we reconnected...or i guess..connected?...at the beginning of undergrad but nothing really panned out. now we are both in a the single position and thoroughly enjoying each other's company. he makes me feel so good about myself, so comfortable. its amazing. downer = he lives in indianapolis. [sigh] the queen of long distance relationships strikes again. good thing i enjoy road trips.
SPR had a baby. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG she had a BABY! i can hardly believe it and i held her in my arms. her name is isabella valencia redmond and she is perfection incarnate. SPR is the first of my close long-time gfs to get married and to have babies so this is beyond insanity for me. SPR was my 4th grade pen pal! i can't wait until bella actually takes shape and stops looking like every other newborn and starts looking like her parents. she is going to be one beautiful little girl.
starting monday i will be spending the week in indi! HEYYOOO! thanks in advance to rumdizzy who will be providing me with a place to sleep on monday! im also really looking forward to see my cousin, a few of my long lost gfs, and of course my booboo. SPRING BREAK HOLLLEERRR. some people go to cancun, some go to florida, i'm not leaving INDIANA YALL.
song of the day: tigerlily / la roux
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
hot like mexico, rejoice
finals are over and its official - i didnt pull off my 4.0. i ended w/ 5 As and 2 Bs - and in normal life i'd be PUMPED - but because i was so close and i'm taking post bach work a bit more seriously than undergrad, i wasn't too thrilled. one of my Bs was an 89.5% - FML. The other one was an 88%. WHATEV
grad packets are done and those that are writing my recommendation letters have all the shit they need to get those going - now all i have to get done are the actual applications - i'm so excited to fast fwd a few months and see which school i'm going to end up at. i have my fingers crossed for IU honestly...but we'll see.
kevin and i broke up, and i think its forreal this time. its been a strange back and forth kind of feeling but in the end...thats the thing that makes me iffy about trying to continue. i think thats his thing too. ill move out after the new yr and im looking forward to it. im readie for the space and the new beginning - and the being across the street from the building where most of my classes are.
these next few weeks are going to be fantastic. im picking up LT from the airport tomorrow night, right after meeting for dinner with some friends from my program in aurora - then LT and i will head to the bar WHOOP. then my time home will consist of catching up with people and christmas and getting my hurrr did and crashing parties...no class and no work until into january WONDERFUL
i'm so in love with lady gaga. and this is my obsession and song of the day. enjoy:
grad packets are done and those that are writing my recommendation letters have all the shit they need to get those going - now all i have to get done are the actual applications - i'm so excited to fast fwd a few months and see which school i'm going to end up at. i have my fingers crossed for IU honestly...but we'll see.
kevin and i broke up, and i think its forreal this time. its been a strange back and forth kind of feeling but in the end...thats the thing that makes me iffy about trying to continue. i think thats his thing too. ill move out after the new yr and im looking forward to it. im readie for the space and the new beginning - and the being across the street from the building where most of my classes are.
these next few weeks are going to be fantastic. im picking up LT from the airport tomorrow night, right after meeting for dinner with some friends from my program in aurora - then LT and i will head to the bar WHOOP. then my time home will consist of catching up with people and christmas and getting my hurrr did and crashing parties...no class and no work until into january WONDERFUL
i'm so in love with lady gaga. and this is my obsession and song of the day. enjoy:
Friday, December 4, 2009
applying for grad school makes me want to curl up and sleep forever. i dont know what i expect to happen when i keep putting it off. like a school will miraculously call me out of the blue and say "hey cash, guess what? you can just have ur Masters degree from us, right now". tomorrow i have vowed to get it done, and its just gotta happen. my personal statement letter is currently about 2 pages long, single spaced, and i need to break that shit down to about 500 words. fab.
on a happie note, i'm not too concerned about finals. i've got As in all my classes...minus 1...fucking bio....but regardless i will end with a great GPA which should help to solidify my case for grad school.
my boss told me that she didnt care how much time i took off of work for christmas - SO i am planning on being back in Vtown from dec 16 - jan 3. with possible road trips in between that time. i would love to make it up to Chi to see my aunt and uncle's place...and possible new yrs down in hot n happenin noblesville, in? any takers? haha no solid plans but just some ideas rolling around in my tired lil mexican head.
and with that, i bid a fine farewell with a lil bad romance. i can relate all too easily.
on a happie note, i'm not too concerned about finals. i've got As in all my classes...minus 1...fucking bio....but regardless i will end with a great GPA which should help to solidify my case for grad school.
my boss told me that she didnt care how much time i took off of work for christmas - SO i am planning on being back in Vtown from dec 16 - jan 3. with possible road trips in between that time. i would love to make it up to Chi to see my aunt and uncle's place...and possible new yrs down in hot n happenin noblesville, in? any takers? haha no solid plans but just some ideas rolling around in my tired lil mexican head.
and with that, i bid a fine farewell with a lil bad romance. i can relate all too easily.
Monday, November 30, 2009
lets try this again
it's a year later and here i am again. and heres where i give my promised shout to the lovely mina matlock for inspiring me to get back to blognation.
my life is breaking down and building up at the moment. relationships, school, work, family. its rough and liberating.
i'm going to be in a book coming out in Dec for WeFeelFine.org - it's their Almanac of Emotion - i'm on the AWESOME page - literally - its broken down into different emotions and general sections and thats the page that I'm on - give it a looksee: http://wefeelfine.org/book/
*sigh* i have a lot on my mind but i'm not able to write about these things publicly quite yet. i'll stick with poetry.
stop pushing me down
she explained to the crown
to the robes red with blood
and the menacing grin
as she struggled with pain
it continued to rain
and the boot was the same
digging into her spine
crawling over the dirt
in the heat of the hurt
as the water ran brown
pushing into the dark
she reflected on then
sunshine petals and fin
where she fell off the horse
and landed in her tears
now the spoons are all knives
and the love is disguised
it swallowed butterflies
and left shallow and torn
yet not far from her bed
something glimmers ahead
something shines through the mist
and she's starting to smile
and i am sun
i am sun and water
i'm the Rey and the rays
i am fear
wave away
understand
where you came from
mud will dry
mouth will laugh
you will sleep
moon, sun, star
my life is breaking down and building up at the moment. relationships, school, work, family. its rough and liberating.
i'm going to be in a book coming out in Dec for WeFeelFine.org - it's their Almanac of Emotion - i'm on the AWESOME page - literally - its broken down into different emotions and general sections and thats the page that I'm on - give it a looksee: http://wefeelfine.org/book/
*sigh* i have a lot on my mind but i'm not able to write about these things publicly quite yet. i'll stick with poetry.
stop pushing me down
she explained to the crown
to the robes red with blood
and the menacing grin
as she struggled with pain
it continued to rain
and the boot was the same
digging into her spine
crawling over the dirt
in the heat of the hurt
as the water ran brown
pushing into the dark
she reflected on then
sunshine petals and fin
where she fell off the horse
and landed in her tears
now the spoons are all knives
and the love is disguised
it swallowed butterflies
and left shallow and torn
yet not far from her bed
something glimmers ahead
something shines through the mist
and she's starting to smile
and i am sun
i am sun and water
i'm the Rey and the rays
i am fear
wave away
understand
where you came from
mud will dry
mouth will laugh
you will sleep
moon, sun, star
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